Just Write
July 13, 2011Huh…Saturday was a very busy day on my blog. I have no clue why, but there was a huge spike in readers that day.
I’ve been meaning to write for a while again, but haven’t (as I’m sure is quite evident). It seems to be the struggle. I just can’t seem to write. Every time anything comes into my head to write about, I begin developing how things will go. Then I do nothing. All day long I’ve had this nagging voice in my head say repeatedly, “just write.” Easier said than done for me.
In my reading, at least when I am reading, I keep coming across this idea that perfectionism is the killer of dreams and of writing and of so much. I am not a perfectionist, though. Or I thought I wasn’t. It seems, oddly enough, that in my writing I want a lot to be perfect. Which I find to be odd because my writing is filled with mistakes all over the place. I’ve never put a lot of effort into essays I would write for classes. But I’ve realized my perfectionism is less in the mechanics, but in the quality of the words. I didn’t post my Good Friday blog because I couldn’t get the words write. There was a lot missing.
Where that is a valid idea, it keeps me from putting words on a page.
I’ve been thinking about my life a lot the past few weeks. I’m not sure I have the right word to describe what I think of it. It’s not that I’m unhappy with my life, but I know it could have so much more. I’m still looking for that ambition and motivation to chase after what ever dreams may be in my heart, soul, and mind. I have ideas on what they may be, but fear is holding me back, as it often does.
My reading, my writing, and my living have slacked lately. Interestingly enough, this is most evident in the fact it has been over a month since I have visited The Cup, the coffee shop I frequent…er…used to.
I’m also noticing it in the movies I select to watch and the themes I pick out of them. Unsurprisingly, this week has been Harry Potter, and the life pieces I’m grabbing are nearly gut-wrenching…Nearly.
Over the next few months I will be acquiring a bunch of new music thanks to Kickstarter.com. Some of these artists are amazing and have some unique ideas for albums. I’m excited for that.
This blog had a lot more organization and flow in my head when I sat down to write it. Obviously, it did not end as such. Oh well, at least I’ve finally written something. Now to just keep writing. Just write.
