Gone

We used to be close. I’m not saying we aren’t close now, but we’ve drifted. We don’t seem to trust each other…at least we don’t open up anymore. I don’t know. The words spoken by us so many times now. And once one of us closes up, the other doesn’t dare open up. In our fear, we’re pushing each other farther away. We care, and we love, and we desire to be in each others live so much, but the pain and confusion has made us scared. I don’t know what’s going to happen. We’re being told opposite things. I know you’re trying to trust and know that I am as well. I don’t want to lose you. I don’t want to push or be pushed. I miss you.